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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Holding Pattern

I know, I know, NOT what you want to hear. Me either, but progress is being made and things are settling down. I’m trying to be flexible and patient, but patience is hard to find when you NEED to make a decision on a child that you are becoming more attached to with every visit.

The circumstances were unusual in one sense and completely normal in another – no one’s fault – but agonizing all the same. If it weren't for several things, including my own need for some extra reassurance on the medical front, I would likely have the IA doctor evals complete and could rest easy, or would be moving to the next steps in finding the right child for me. I expected to be WAY past this part of the process by now. Should be. Want to be. With every ounce of my being.

As of right now, I am awaiting one review with the IA doc that should occur within the next couple of hours. Trying to stay occupied, awake, and not stress until then. I'm keeping a positive outlook.

Meanwhile, I'll bore you with the day to day life thus far. I HAVE INTERNET!! I have also figured out how to light the stove without blowing up the building (fingers are only a little singed), I can say about three things in Russian that can actually be understood, I have run the little washing machine despite the Russian manual and my clothes actually came out clean, the same color and in one piece, I have a few new towels, sheets, and a buck-forty super lightweight nightie that was The Find thus far. Yes, it is hot here. Yes, the clothes I packed don't help. Live and learn.

I've now experienced the infamous brown waters of Kaz in person. The hot water was off for most of the day and when it comes back on, those old rusty iron pipes come with it!

I have ventured out a couple of times on my own. There is shopping very close – retail therapy is a great distraction. Have managed to stock up at the grocery store and discovered that everyone and their brother goes to the market on Friday evenings between 6:30 and 8. Reminded me of Costco on a Friday after work, just on a much smaller scale.

Have been to the nearby mall several times as well. Earlier this week, Regina and I both bought vin-til-ya-tars, otherwise known as fans, in a meager attempt to stay cool. The one in Regina’s apartment had given up the ghost the day before and the ones in the shop were exhibiting the same symptoms. Took several tries before the eager sales woman found two that were working. And they weren’t cheap. We made a bet on whose “Made in China” fan dies or burns up first. Burning up seems to be a common occurrence with anything electrical here.

Mentioning burning up, I have not sweat so much in my life. Seriously. Ugh times 10. I know, TMI. If it weren’t so miserable and embarrassing, it would almost be funny. Here I am hair dripping, make-up long gone (except for the mascara smeared all over under my eyes), red-faced, clothes soaking wet and stuck to me, and everyone else in the queue looks like they just stepped out of the salon with not a sticky drip of moisture in sight. I somehow thought that it was at least as or more arid here than in Denver. I was wrong. The nice woman at the little cold case counter in the mall actually chuckled after I was pushed aside several times by more assertive shoppers and asked only for a BIG bottle of water. I think I may have been panting.

My favorite experience so far was in the produce market. A portly grandmother-type gave me a smile (rare among strangers here) as I wandered by, so my choice of which stall to buy from was made. There was a man talking to her from my side of the stand, that I’m pretty sure was Mr. Portly. I pointed at the oranges and apples and help up 2 fingers, pa-jul-sta, and the games began. Mrs. Portly bagged up my order, while Mr. Portly tried to get me to buy two of everything else they had. He was laughing and teasing and it felt really good to make even a passing connection with someone here. I’ll be visiting them again soon.

So now that I have entertained you with the scintillating accounts of my shopping adventures, I’ll tell you what I have so far determined are must haves:

  • a BIG plastic drinking glass and/or cup. A single can of Coke will fill the average glass in Kaz 3 or 4 times. Think Dixie cup. The kind that went into that little dispenser stuck on the wall in your bathroom when you were a kid. If you want to have a nice big glass of anything in your apartment, bring your own. I couldn’t even find one in the mall.
  • Eurosurge -- the power fluctuates here constantly.
  • Learn some Russian!!! I started too late, but am happy I at least can count to 10 and mumble a passable please, thank you, and good morning. And, of course, the much needed Pampers. ;) I have never been good with languages, but it is interesting how my college French is coming back to me, along with my grade school Spanish. Not sure why being talked to in Russian has me thinking in French. Very strange. As for Russian, I often think the one or two word response, but somehow cannot get anything coherent to come out my mouth. Not that that is particularly unusual for me anywhere! Regina is amazing. She carries on entire conversations like a native, while I'm still mumbling "je ne sais pas."

14 comments:

Sandi said...

Alysa
I am so happy you updated the blog, I was seriously starting to worry. I am truly sorry that this process is so daunting and difficult at times, but I am glad that you seem to have the right attitude and that will help you meet your child. So hang in there and I will continue praying that the IA doctors get you the answers you need to move forward.

I love the description of how hot you are, its definitely a little more humid in Kaz :-) Your shopping experience with the Portleys had me laughing.

Keep the faith!!!

Sandi

Susan said...

hey sweetie!! so good to hear from you. I talk to Tricia everyday in Kostanai and she talks about how hot it is too...sounds like big heat, not humid heat like we're so used to in Florida.
I have packed 3 waterbottles for us, so that will do for our big glasses..LOL
I hope you get the info that you are looking for on the lil boy that you are visiting. I cannot even imagine how stressed you are, but you are so smart to make a decision not entirely based on emotions. I am the emotional one, and my husband is the practical matter of fact one (thank goodness)

I'm glad Regina is there with you.
I can count to 10 in Russian and say a few words, but that is it.
I have been listening to my adopting in Russia cd for a very long time, but would take long breaks.
It's all on ipod now. :)

We are all thinking and praying for you for the right decision for you.

My doc just hooked me up with mega prescriptions, so we are GOOD TO GO for tomorrow.

Hugs and prayers Alysa!

I will be out of pocket the next few days, so I Hope for some good news from you when I get to Kaz!!

Baby Kaz Moore said...

Hey, so glad to hear from you and that you're safe. Continue to take care, best, Susan

Karla and Ben said...

I was glad to find a post today. I hope you had your IA review and all is well. Our best thoughts continue to be sent your way. -Karla

Wilsons said...

Hi Alysa...guess what? Based on your sink picture you are in the same apartment we stayed in. There is a "mall" or "bazaar" right across the street and a park with new statues/fountain right out your window, right? So, you should at least have air cond. there...that's good. Don't you love how the water just shuts off for days at a time? Oh the memories. The baby house wouldn't let us open the windows so we basically just sweated buckets for 4 hours a day. So glad you have someone experienced with you. That IA Doc stuff takes forever. We waited almost a week for our sons FAS test results. Good luck. Dara Wilson

Unknown said...

Alysa:

It's really good to hear from you! Glad that you're adapting to the challenging living conditions and climate and venturing out, despite the sweating. You're making me appreciate our rather dry 90-degree weather. I'm hoping and keeping my fingers crossed that the information you're waiting for will be helpful, and you can graduate from this part of the process.

Paka,
Kim

Patrick & Eileen said...

Hi Alysa,
I'm glad you updated. I know that it's been hard waiting to hear from the IA doc and I hope as of this writing you've heard from him. My fingers are crossed that you're fine with what the doc had to say!

Congrats on using both the stove and washing machine successfully :)
Hmmmm....the water did not look appetizing at all - yikes!

Another congrats for venturing out on your own several times - builds confidence :)

Okay the sweating description does sound funny. But I'm sure that it's not in reality. I hate to sweat and can only imagine how annoying and yukky it feels. I'm a A/C girl!!

Thanks for your tips!!

Take care,
Eileen

poobail said...

Hi Alysa, I, too, was really getting worried with no updates. But reading other blogs before you I do know there are often technical problems. Glad to know you have the internet in your apt. I loved your sweat description, too, it is sooo the same as I would be. So tell us, would you have rather been there in sub zero weather? Anyway, hope your IA dr has responded to you by now and with the answers you crave. Good luck! I'm looking forward to hearing more soon, like age, etc.
Margaret

Chris & Christy said...

I fifth or sixth the same sentiment I am glad to see your post> okay no idea what is up with my keyboard and why I am getting a slash when I want a period and why when my caps are ON I can only type in lower case and when it is off I can capitalize< WEIRD!

Anyhow< (that was a comma) my thoughts are with you each day on this journey and I hope that you soon find peace and answers in your decisions>

Christy

The Casale Family said...

I am thinking of you often and glad that you posted. I will send positive energy that the doc will have a good report for you.
I enjoyed reading about Mr and Mrs. Portly and glad you felt the connection there. Can't imagine the tiny glasses of water, since I down 16 ozs without even blinking. I suppose you could be festive and pretend they are shots :)
Anyway, I hope all is well and look forward to your next blog.
Heather

Susan and Robert said...

Alysa,

I hope these next few days go fast for you and you can make a decision one way or another. Nothing about this is easy is it?

Thinking of you often.
Susan

Veronica said...

It was great to hear from you. I hate to admit it but I was getting a bit worried too so I was really glad to see an update.

The day-to-day doesn't sound like summer camp, except for the heat, but I'm sure it will all be worth it in the end. You may want to buy a third fan as a back-up ;)

It seems like we all stuggle balancing our decisions between what our heart and mind are telling us to do. You're doing all you can to make an informed decision and I commend you for that. I wish you lots of wisdom Alysa. Take care in the meantime.

Kelly and Sne said...

Hi Alysa! Hope that you get the news you want very soon now...

Thanks for the update on your life there. I'm so glad that we missed the unbearable heat because I would have been fainting along with the sweating. But - I think in a week or two it will start to cool off fast and you'll be freezing and it will be quite the irony!

Glad you made a personal connection. I found that most locals actually were pretty friendly and helpful if you had the right attitude. They just aren't outwardly overly friendly like Americans can be. Instead they might whisper something in English under their breath or subtly help you to pull the carts apart in the grocery. Of course, that's when they aren't knocking you out of the way (a European trait as well as a survival trait in communist times when goods were in short supply).

And, here's where I share my philosophy on language learning. I think our brains are like filing cabinets. We file languages away when we don't use them. And when a new language comes along, you start looking through the filing cabinets for references and that's where the French (and Spanish and Italian, etc) comes from! Voila!

Regina said...

It's nice that you think I can carry on a conversation... the only thing is it sounds like this to the Kazakhs: "Me wants fan work good please!"

Don't forget to do the Pimsleur CDs when you get home. They're great!